going to kolej matrikulasi pahang?

it's 930pm now. im packing my things now,in a rush,is going 2 pahang later.

i x feel like wanna going,dunno why.but then,if i din go,wat should i do? waiting for the outcomes of appeal without doing anything?everyone hav started studying. some enter college,some enter form six. they r entering the next stage in their life.how bout me? i got no ideas. im confused. i dunno wat should i do next?at first,im delighted when i know tat im going 2 enter a new study life.but i feel unwell now. sigh~ wat should i do? wat should i do?

enter matrik? form six? o enter singapore uni? haiz..

anyway,i know tat i should enter matrikulasi asap. mum is out,going 2 buy a bus ticket and send me to pahang. i pity her. after tat,she gotta back alone. dad is not going with us. anyway,i'v used up to his attitude,happy-go-lucky type and tend to linger. procrastination is the thief of time,but seem like he doesn't know it. nvm,woman is always independent,woman still can survive without man. as such,my mum decide to go to pahang with me. just two of us.

i dunno wat should i pack,especially the attires. i got no ideas wat attires are allowed to wear there.i think i had packed everythings except clothes.waiting for the phone call from my friends,they had registered today morning.they are there now,listening the taklimat.

well,all the best to me. im going to matriculation. im going to study at pahang. let get everything started!! study spirit^^

should i b happy?

sometime when things doesn't go smooth as wat u hope,smtg unexpectation happens,wat would u do? i tot im a strong gal,i tot tat i can handle it no matter wat's the outcome. i tot tat i wont cry in front ppl anymore. but who knows... when things r destined 2 happen,u cant do anything but accept it. yeah,mayb tis is fate n destiny. i shouldn't b so greedy. but im x satisfy. tis is not wat i wan. 2 years! i'v been putting all my efforts in tis 2 years just 2 achieve tis dream.however,juz 1 second,my dream is not longer alive. sob. life is like tat,when u desire smtg,u gotta put a lot of efforts 2 do it,but the results is x guaranteed. there r not a must tat if u put many efforts,u sure wil get wat u wan. sometime v should c our luck. im trying 2 persuade myself 2 accept it. but it is in vain. the very thought saddened me. tears then welled in my eyes,cant stop sobbing. i think tat i deserve it,but how come?? y?? anyone can tell me?i wanna 2 study abroad,2 experience the western life style,their study life. n i'v been studying hard,aiming 2 get the scholarship. i tot im qualified 2 get the scholarship since i'v been performing well in academic n curricular activities. but nope! even u r the genius,u stil cant get everything u wan. mayb tis is a challenge,i should tell myself tis. as tis is wat god offer 2 me,i muz accept it. life is full of challenges. unhappiness is definitely wil occur,as time flies,everything wil b fine too. so,mayb studying local is a best choice oso,mayb i wil experience smtg indifferent.there r a lot of challenges n obstacles for me 2 overcome in the future. so,i should learn 2 b optimistic. even though unsatisfying,i should learn to ACCEPT it. all the best,wei ling.one day,u wil hav a chance 2 study overseas 1. tis is my next goal,performing well in academic when i enter university,n get a chance 2 apply any scholarship again. there r many ways for me. doors are always opened for me. the most important point is,i cant give up. i shouldn't give up. coz im x tat kind of ppl. im confident of myself. good luck^^